I have been twisting my mind trying to recall any nasty comments made by clients about my body and oops, I think I did it again.
I played with your heart. Got lost in the game.
You were hoping for some juicy trauma porn and sadly I can't deliver. Maybe I've blocked out some horrific things that have been said to me over the years. Or maybe, just maybe, clients aren't as shitty as the mainstream media portrays them to be.
My suitors generally book me because they enjoy my physique. I'm seeing a lovely gentleman this week who seeks to worship at my feet. Body worship is an extremely popular (and fulfilling) kink that more women should partake in. Ancient cultures, those closest to the divine (IMHO), worshipped feminine forms: wide hips, bellies, breasts, powerful thighs. Read 'I am Ra' and the God himself explains how these ancient cultures were in tune with the divine, allowing them to create wonders of the world.
Clients are generally far from what pearl clutchers and SWERFs want you to believe they are: abusive heathens. Heathens, yes, but they are rarely abusive. They are just like you: seeking human connection. It's oh so much more than sex and hopefully one day the mainstream will understand.
I do have somewhat different experiences working as a very thin woman vs working in my healthy body (how I look currently) vs my experiences as a BBW. I actually made the most money as a BBW. I can't think of one natural redhead BBW in our industry so I had something extremely unique to offer. My clients then were very loyal.
Clients who booked me when I was extremely thin were a bit more likely to be assholish. My pet theory is that insecure men are drawn to tiny women. It's obviously a power thing, they feel strong and mighty with a tiny lass. More boundary pushing and assholery, weird game playing.
Funny thing is I actually felt fat back then 😂 The most beautiful woman often secretly hate themselves because, well, society teaches us that we're never good enough. Get a bigger ass, bigger tits, slimmer waist, buy this tummy tea, do this squat challenge. The entire "health and wellness" industry is dedicated to telling us we can always buy something to look prettier.
Many women are desperately unhappy and insecure in their 20s so age intersects with body type as well. Now that I'm older I've finally learned how to love myself. I understand the power of my beauty that isn't dependent on outward aesthetics.
The current generation is lost, in my humble opinion. How could they not be? They were raised on Instagram ffs. They were raised staring at themselves on a screen and with the Kardashians as role models. This is why depression is at an all time high and most people in the Western world have a chronic health condition.
It's time for women to realize that we have inherent beauty and power independent of our tits and asses. T&A is great and all, don't get me wrong, but I only found my happiness after finding a passion outside of aesthetics.